bittersweet

i was ready to leave logan. i was ready to go home. i was ready to be done with another semester. i wanted time to pass. so why am i so sad?

i'm sitting in my room tearing down the pictures. ripping my life off of these white torn walls. so many times i couldn't wait to get out of this room where so much pain and sorrow has taken place. watching my friends hurt. me being hurt. crying more than we probably have in our whole lives. but we laughed more too. i remember the happiness this room has brought us. all the laughs at our unique little lives here in logan.

oh what this year has brought. we have grown. i have grown. i never knew what one year away from home could do to you. life is moving too fast. i'm excited for the next chapter. oakcrest. but i'm sad to be leaving this one, suprisingly.

i don't have words for my thoughts at this moment. but it's ok, i don't need them. i know how i am feeling right now. heavenly father and christ know how i am feeling right now. what more do i need?

happy and hurt in this bittersweet moment. enjoy the moment. i will enjoy this one. so to logan utah, to 204 of morgan hall, to my best friends, to the gospel, to freshman year of college-thank you. thank you for helping me grow.